My work Place

I really don’t know where to begin from. I started working very early in my life. While I was still in college I started giving tuition. Those were fun days for me coz I use to get lot of interesting pple to meet with(some where really strange pple with weird nature).then right after d completion of graduation I started working to earn quick bucks and Business Process Outsourcing(BPO for some and for most of the common masses its d call centre) was the only option. Frankly speaking I didn’t like working in that industry coz somehow I found myself to be different from them. The odd hours of working. The most difficult part was to remain awake at night and then you have mixed bags of pple working with you. Some are graduate some are just school drop out and some are so experienced that they could very well be termed as veteran, however in BPO terms we were all freshers.Somehow I found myself disconnected from the rest of the lot. however when I realized that this is the place where I need to stay and work I started working hard and somehow my feelings which was so far of disgust and hatred changed dramatically into fondness for my work place. I know it might sound strange after what I have mentioned earlier I quite started liking the place the people around me and somehow I gelled so well with everyone around me that I can say I have some of my closest friend from there and the time I spend in Kolkata BPO will be one of the best days of my life. We had so much that I never felt I was working. Everyday was a big picnic for me and I use to look forward when the evening will come and when can I be with my gang. As a career I was making progress but it was a negligible one compared to the progress that my friends have made. they all were getting themselves admitted to any MBA college and here I was working at night and sleeping in the morning. Quite a lifestyle and everyone should get a hang of it at least once. So like my friends it also dawned on me to make some progress in life and then luck smiled on me and I finally got transferred to Wipro Technologies ,Pune.Things cant be better than this for me. I was thrilled and happy and with new dreams in my eyes. Initially everything was very good and life was like a dream for me. However like all good things comes to an end my dream also had to come to an end and now I am in one such work place which sucks to the core. I could never imagine work place can be a battleground kinds where everyone has to prove who is better if that means even implementing the worst things that is possible in the world in the name of change. So today when I am writing this I am amazed at one fact that we can’t get everything at one place. When I was in BPO I had fun but there was no career progression and now when there is career progression there is no fun.The entire atmosphere is polluted at times it becomes difficult to breathe.Hope is that is alive that one day hopefully the environmnet changes and we can mix work with play minus the politics.

Amo

I really don’t know where to start from coz exactly a year ago I was not even affected by this syndrome of LOVE. However within a span of 1year here I am TRULY MADLY DEEPLY in LOVE and don’t know how to come out of it.
My story goes like this-

I started working right after college and in order to earn quick bucks there was no other better place than a BPO.It was 2006 when I joined BPO and it was here that I met my best friend (with whom I fell in love).As long as we were working in Kolkata we were best of pals and we found it very easy to talk about pretty much anything, as it was ok to be ourselves and feel comfortable.
Things changed when when we both moved down to Pune with a better job prospect and as many people would term (specially my mom) staying in the same house with my friend things changed for me. I dnt know when and how I started falling for him and he on the other side just took me as a friend. It was an awful situation when I was attracted to him and all he felt for me was strictly platonic emotions. The mistake that I made was that before jumping to conclusions and thinking that he is attracted to me, so open with me because he likes me — watch out! I was mistaken. I should have realized that I was in the friend zone because he uses to tell me all about his problems. He asked me for advice about the people he was attracted to. He uses to tell me excitedly, “I just met this really great girl!” The more I spend time with him I kept falling head over heals in love with him. Unknowingly I kept falling in love with him and he had given me friend status because I was way too nice, too accommodating and too agreeable but only because I wanted to win him over — and he saw through it. I tried to impress too much. So suggestion for people if you want to win over person you like, don’t try too hard, it might turn them off. My problem was I couldn’t stop acting like his puppy dog and was so available at the drop of a hat. I couldn’t wait a day or two to return one of his phone calls. I couldn’t Be a challenge; to him I became a doormat. Still I didn’t mind being a doormat because it gave me the pleasure and happiness of being with him and to make each moment a special moment for me. However things became different when one fine day he decided to move out of the house as he wanted to leave the job and go back to kolkata.That day it seemed the entire universe came crashing down on me coz truly I didn’t have any clue what my next step should be. He was the world for me and now he only decides to move out without even thinking about me. truly I had no clue how to react and how to make ways for my further stay in pune.those days I had such pathetic feelings that at times I felt like giving up my life but then as great men has put it love is sacrifice and it is selfless I decided to move on and stay with couple of other friends in pune with his memories intact. Suddenly again he surfaces and this time he has changed a lot and somehow I am not able to connect with him. A friend of mine has said that don’t love expecting the same love from him, you should continue to love and one fine day your love will be answered if not by him there will be someone to give the same love that you gave someone. So here I am as day’s passes by and with every second I am falling more in love with him with a prayer on my lips that he should get everything that he wants and he should never ever suffer for love. He should get his love. On a more optimistic note like most of our Hollywood movies which have a happy ending I should also wait for that special someone to come and make me once again fall in love may be with the right person. Since when we are in love we actually fall in love with people who are identically opposite to us and somehow things which we hated earlier are the things that we love in this kind of relationship. I know love makes people look like an idiot. So dear I know you will never ever come to know about my feelings coz urn r to precious for me and I wont share it with you as I fear that I will loose you even as a friend so let my love for you be anonymous.
We never did love each other
But whenever someone mentions love
You rush into my mind.
My soul yearns to unbelong you
Yet you live on in my memories.

I still remember you.

And it’s in such nights
You drive my loneliness away!